Day15 Sonja Akins Time to Be Alone

Sonja Akins

3 thoughts on “Day15 Sonja Akins Time to Be Alone”

  1. PROMPT: Eleanor Rigby (Song)
    STORY: Scrapbook a page about loneliness, or how you are connecting.
    TECHNIQUE: Use the colour blue.

    STORY: I didn’t want to do another layout on how I’m connecting. Days 4, 9, 10, and 11 already covered that. So, I adapted the loneliness prompt to “aloneness.”
    TECHNIQUE: I used blue for my background.

    The journaling reads: They say, “Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it,” implying you may not like it at all if your wish comes true. So, I’m wishing for just a little bit of happy aloneness, a temporary span of time where I can just be by myself and do what I want to do. Don’t get me wrong, I love my family, and I don’t want to lose anyone or distance myself or engender any animosity among any of us. I just need a break from constant company.

    Ron used to teach real estate and he was gone for several hours, many days a week. I used to keep Rylee, and later Sully, but Ry is in school now and Sully’s in daycare, so I only had them occasionally for normal grandma babysitting. I frequently invited Rylee for a sleepover on the weekends, but those were scheduled, planned for, and anticipated. After Ed moved in next door, he helped so much in caring for Mom that I was relegated to taking them shopping and to church, and getting Mom to her medical appointments. I had time to myself!

    Then, Ron retired and now he’s home all day. Ed went back to California (temporarily, I hope), but he’ll be gone weeks, if not months, so I’m Mom’s sole caretaker again. Then, there’s the pandemic. The schools and daycares are closed, so Rylee, and often Sully too, are here every weekday. The only times I leave the house are to attend my Cursillo Group on Monday nights (outdoors, with proper social distancing) and to do a grocery run. The only time I’m by myself, actually, is while I’m in the car going to a grocery store, so that’s less than an hour a week.

    I miss it. I miss being able to sleep late and wake up to an empty house. I miss being able to plan a meal for when I want to eat, then to read while I eat without being interrupted by anyone. I miss doing paperwork in the kitchen in blessed silence, or doing housework with my music turned up LOUD.

    I had started meditating a little each morning, and though I wasn’t good at it, I was practicing. Can’t do that now. If I’m not homeschooling, I’m deluged with various other interruptions. I used to schedule my chores for a time that was convenient for me. Can’t do that now. Getting to them at all is a minor miracle. I used to work alone in my ScrapCave for hours on a single layout. Can’t do that now. Someone’s always coming to check on me and make sure I haven’t had an accident with my paper cutter.

    I don’t want to change EVERYTHING. I love teaching my kindergartner! I love snuggling my little wild one! I love having a hubby for 46 years! I have a very close relationship with my Mom! But I miss ME. I guess I’m wishing for a little balance in my jam-packed life. I hope I get it.

    Supply list:
    * This is a digital layout using the Project Life app.
    * I started with the Big Shot 28 template.
    * I used the Adventure Edition.

  2. Laura Parsons

    Great layout – love your large photo of the extended family spanning the top of the page as well as your honesty describing the changes to your routine.
    Awww- totally understand what you are describing. We have had our daughter home from the UK from her master’s program for last 8 weeks after 6 years of an empty nest. Whoa- it has been a bit of a strain even though it is nice to spend time with her.

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